Psychedelic Vitvan

Psychedelic Vitvan

How the Field Works

Vitvan was an expression of the Wisdom Teaching of the Last Age in its summation, and in anticipation of casting its seeds over the waters into the New Cycle he spoke of. 

But frankly, he had no idea of what form the New Cycle would take; he projected his Old Cycle ideas forward, imagining a world where people grew up talking physics and General Semantics. He departed discovering at the end that he was really one of the "Dharma Bums" he had disparaged, he left as the First Wave of the New Cycle expressed as the psychedelic 60's hit the Old Guard like a thunderclap. He did not see or predict our rapidly etherealizing world knit together electronically in the non-local reality of the World Wide Web, our playful sense of virtual personalities, and the flood of information that will lead us into that future he anticipated when "secrets shall be no more." He, as the enthusiastic learner he was, would have been thrilled at all the new discovery and methodologies open to us.

As part of this transitional spirit he attempted to rephrase the older “metaphysical” language into a more scientific verbiage that he hoped would appeal to the technical and precise Western mind. He tried to make metaphysics respectable so as to build a bridge to unite the apparently separate worlds of spirit and science.

It seems to me that Vitvan’s use of the term “Field” to replace the more animistic ideas of Self-organizing Intelligence called Spirit, was an experiment of dubious success. We will never be certain what kind of effect however it may have had in the hidden worlds of hacking the human psychic code; perhaps infusing scientific materialist terms with his higher frequency consciousness floated a Trojan horse into the materialist worlds and paved the way for the plethora of Quantum Jumping Many-Worlds blendings of Science and Spirit we find in so many New Age ideations.

Most people have a general sense of a “field” as in “electromagnetic” field, an energy structure produced by the lines of force in the polarity of a magnet, or of the earth’s magnetic field.  First comes the magnet, then is produced the field.

But Vitvan was using the term as in a newer model wherein the Field exists PRIOR to the appearance of the lines of force. That before what we call our world comes into being is an "underlying" Reality that is Source. Today we might substitute the now much more commonly understood terms Source Field, Zero Point energy, Vacuum, or even more ancient terms like Plenum, Hyle. Here the term Field points at the Innate Function of Cosmos as Mind to Self-organize. In other words, IT is the principle of growth and coming into existence out of Beingness.

While this “something-out-of-nothing” sounding concept sure sounds like metaphysics, Vitvan would say there is only One Reality, and not something “meta” or “beyond.” The models of Nassim Haramein are now a beautiful bridging of this gulf, for we see how the Plenum is invisible to our senses because IT is a perfect balancing of all forces which puts IT at rest and beyond perception which is based on comparing similarities and differences.

But ENOUGH of this “physical” referent for Field. Vitvan still meant by the term Field that Fiery Spirit that is our very life, that brings us into this world, and is our true nature as Consciousness on Mind Level. And being as IT is our Root and true nature, IT is our Real Teacher to be found within each of us, not as projected onto some man named Ralph, or Jesus, or Buddha. And yet, we still have those who would objectify the “teaching” as being that which Ralph brought through.

Vitvan wanted his students to find that Spirit within, that I AM at our core, and then follow ITs dictates to each of us personally, to listen to the still small voice of our Higher Self, and to trust ONLY our own experience.

To find this Fiery Spirit within after you have grown up and lost the Joy of a child is not easy. One of the functions of a teacher or “master” is to infuse the student with their Darshan, a higher stimulating energy, higher frequencies, which act as a stimulant for growth.

These higher frequencies can produce results varying from taking the student completely out of their normal frame of consciousness to have a “mystical” or psychedelic experience.

Or applied more gently, to stir up the subconscious of the student causing unprocessed psychic materiel to bubble to the surface of awareness, producing a “purificatory” or psycholytic experience.

Over time Vitvan learned that most people could not withstand his full-on force and that such amplified frequencies can even make people sick, as he discovered back in the 1920’s when he enthusiastically let his forces out on a church congregation. So he learned to scale it back, to veil his forces, and apply them “homeopathically.”

In fact he stated that he did NOT want his students to practice chanting AUM too much as it would precipitate the purificatory process in them too strongly and he wanted most students to proceed homeopathically. He was a very kind man to his students whom he referred to as “babies.” But once in a while he would let the cat out of the bag and state that only 2% of them had what it took to really do the Work. For the other 98% he told stories in Sunday School, and wrote EXOTERIC books and lessons.

The real Teacher is not conveyed in words and tapes, but is met within the Student in the Fire of their own Spirit. For the sweetness and lighters who could not stand in this Fire he suggested they go on down the road to Flower Newhouse’s ashram.

Alas today it is those very same Flower Newhouse students such as Marj, Susan and Jane, and their gelded consorts Pat and Dan, who lord it over Vitvan’s School.

And they, lost in their sanitized confusion between the work of a real School, and that of garden puttering, comma nit-picking, and potato planting that belongs to a Farm, attack those whose enthusiasm for stepping into the Fire threatens them.

Stan Grof, the great psychedelic researcher, refers to the action of psychoactive substances as “non-specific amplifiers;” that is, JUST LIKE the higher frequencies that Vitvan would put on a student thru Darshan. These historically sacred plants and substances stir the student’s psyche, revealing the hidden (psyche-delic “revealing the psyche or soul”). In small amounts they produce the psycholytic effect of making the content of the psyche available to consciousness; in larger amounts they take one on the Hero’s Journey into mystical worlds within, including fearful confrontations, and ecstatic revelation.

Isn’t it ironic that these self-proclaimed “protectors” of the Teaching on the SNO Board can miss what is so clearly in front of their noses? And that they have become the prime OBSTACLE?

They maintain that any open discussion about the uses of psychedelics as an adjunct in spiritual work is "criminal" and could endanger the existence of SNO. Meanwhile Universities and many other government permitted non-profits such as MAPS.org hold annual psychedelic conferences where 100s of  credentialed researchers share research and hold workshops. Prestigious publications such as The Lancet, NY Times, Scientific American, The Chronicle of Higher Education, etc., have published even-handed articles on the return of research interest into psychedelic studies.

And it's not just the medical and psychiatric applications. "The expansion of psychedelics beyond medicine also received support. While Dr. Schuster was happy to see psychedelic research being conducted for specific psychiatric purposes," wrote MAPS deputy director Valerie Mojeiko, "he also actively advocated for exploration into the potential application of psychedelics for spiritual and personal growth and development-quite a refreshing perspective from a former [National Institute of Drug Abuse] Director!" (2010, 18)." (as quoted from the book The Psychedelic Future of the Mind: How Entheogens are Enhancing Cognition, Boosting Intelligence, and Raising Values by Thomas B. Roberts, Ph.D)

SNO's letter to students explaining the eviction and ban states that "The Board’s decision was based solely on Jim’s public advocacy of illegal drugs." And yet, in the paragraph above you can read that even a former Director of NIDA "actively advocates" the very same things Jim did.

While the SNO Board rattling around in their bubble of fear saw fit to evict this student and ban him from even setting foot on the property for sharing information on these very same interests, which then led to other long time students leaving and breaking with this Board over these flagrant displays of paranoia and repression, it actually hasn't been all bad for reviving the Spirit of Vitvan before Its flame guttered under the suffocating atmosphere that prevails at SNO and Home Farm.

The eviction and ban led to the birth of the Vitvan Archive, these various blogs, and the birth of the Reform-SNO.org movement. And it will eventuate in the shaming and removal of these petty tyrants.

O you vipers and cowards and Pollyannas, you whining  prohibitionists who offer grape juice and wheat wafers for Communion, one day One will come who will sweep you out of the Temple.

For Vitvan, children, WAS and IS psychedelic, and his teaching was about the Entheogen within. The plants and the trees who have stood in unwavering devotion worshiping the Golden Sun in the heavens for millennia, also have provided the true seeker the fruits from the Tree of Knowledge to find the Golden Sun within. For the Kingdom of Heaven is within.

And it is within you NOW.  JUST SAY NO to those who would deny you the right to find your own Path, to seek where the Spirit takes you, and who have not the courage to stand for your Freedom, and who ask you to depart and leave Vitvan's ship in their hands as they let it drift onto the rocks. 

We ask THEM to depart. You have failed to protect the Spirit of the Teaching. You have failed Vitvan.

 

posted by JW 3-16-13

Midnight in the Garden of Good and Evil

What do we glean from these comments from The Problem of Good and Evil?

"For students of the Gnosis, let it be said:

Do not rail at or about what for the moment seems

to be evil; and particularly do not fight that which

is called evil.

Rather, learn its purpose - which is never 
the obvious or given one - and work with
that purpose, in oneself and in general.
The comprehensive explanations for saying this will,
little by little, 
be found in the instruction;
 

Carefully analyze this, and see what you are going to do about it!
For if you begin to call your own sense of guilt
the devil, unconsciously conditioning yourself to
fight the devil, you will be fighting your own sense of guilt.

If you cannot find and work

with the real purposes of evil, then forget the

shadow, study the light; don't look at the shadows

at all, just keep your mind on the light.

 In due course you will find that The Good is all;
 there is nothing but The Good
 including the hidden purpose of that which is called evil."     
-- Vitvan

Vitvan says if you don’t understand the purposes of evil, and can work with them, you should avoid this Shadow work for now, and stick to the happy Light side.  

What do we call "evil?"  Evil is that which opposes us, would take our life, would dine on us. That’s a relative position. When we fight to emerge from the cocoon of a state we are outgrowing, we have to struggle to get free. And those in the old state or Matrix don’t want you to take your energy from their group field.

When you go beyond them they feel it as a threat to their consensus reality. If someone leaves them, it calls into question the value of what they do. They need to find reasons why there is something wrong with you, rather than them.

Because we shared consensus values with them on a frequency level, these strings need to be pulled off of us so we can separate as in mitosis, as a daughter cell leaving its mother and childhood. Those strings now become values in us we have to shed, but heretofore they have been part of our survival construct, our emotional feeding trough. 

Now those strings and guna-constructs are to be abandoned. We want to get any trace of our Marj-ness, our Susanity, our Danity, our Unsanity, OUT OF US. (our Patsy-ness, our Baby Jane semantics-lite, our auto-plate Sikhers, our Dilly-Daltons...) These people and what they represent now to us have become as “evil,” that which opposes our life purpose. They say, “can’t we all just get along?” Meaning, don’t rock the boat WE have constructed for you.

Confrontation with them heats things up and exposes IN US what is left of those no-longer-functional guna-constructs, or threads. So we USE their “evil” to expose any remnants in ourselves, in order to get past them. Thus if we understand what is “evil” to us, we do not resist it in the sense that it has no place in human ecology, but we USE it to test and temper ourselves, to REMOVE those old survival modes that now hold us back.

NOR do we condemn ourselves for using our energy (anger to defend ourselves, and smiting back assholes who tread upon us) to break these ties and get their parasitical hooks out of us. We do NOT feel there is something wrong in us and therefore feel “guilty” over our actions. “OH WHY didn’t I meekly turn the other cheek and let them run over me??” Surrender doesn’t mean give in to THEIR values of what you should be doing, but to follow the Crazy Wisdom of your own Higher Self.

WE WORK WITH EVIL. It's all energy. We do not run away from confrontation and the fight. The fight is to separate and come out, and to do that, to be able to stand on your own, we need to be tested to see if we can hold our new grade. Without that testing, that fighting to re-order our forces and structure, it is just pretense and a mental model, or a hot-house Flower Newhouse state, that will collapse when put through the wringer.

We need to be challenged and beat up by the “evil” that is in us (old, no longer functional states). Those who run from the battle will not have their mettle and metal forged by the Fire. So, don’t be afraid to FIGHT and RESIST. This is Natural Order. Those who don’t see that and go boo-hoo about fighting don’t understand why we don’t resist evil , but embrace it, take it head on, say to it, “do your best. I’ll kick your ass and THEN I’ll move on.”

I have often had a vision of myself gradually moving away from all acquaintances... but I could say nothing... There were many old family-related emotional modules that could not be sustained, but unless they were stirred up and exposed again, I could not move past them (forced to let them go against my will), as long as their “evil” remain hidden in me. Eventually separation would occur.

How indeed can we find what is next as we explore the Unknown Continent, unless we leave the village?

But we have a Mythos told in our village, stories that we tell for those who will follow and who are called to the Hero’s Journey of Separation, Wandering, Exploration and Discovery. We owe it to those ones to keep the Mythos alive and clean. It is part of our duty to trounce and put back into their place any who shit on the Mythos, who only give it lip service and do not hold it Sacred.

Thus you can leave (for higher studies) at the same time you kick ass on those who run the middle schools, because it’s NOT about them and their little sinecures, but about keeping the Flame alive in the Temple. Their job is to sweep the porch.

All of us must undergo periodic review by the Father to see how we are investing our talents. And the older students are authorized to kick ass on the younger when they turn Home Farm into Animal Farm.  

So some might say that if we characterize the level of behavior at SNO as “evil” then we make a “mistake” by fighting against it. Detach. Do nothing is their advice.

But what Vitvan is saying is that if you consider things in YOURSELF to be evil, and you reject part of yourself, push it away, you will never escape “evil.” (Shadow self). Therefore recognize it as something to be looked into, accepted and studied. 

In a similar way others can be projected on and made to seem evil, that is, their purposes thwart ours. So we use their opposition to us to drive to the surface our hidden reactivity, so that we can not be controlled, but rather to work with the script we have been handed. Everything that exists is part of the Wholeness, of the Good. If we see that, then whatever happens to us we roll with. But this does NOT mean that we let ourselves be rolled over.

The Good has put in us the URGE to flower, to protect ourselves, and to multiply. Likewise the Good has put that urge into others who may oppose us. What we are to do is NOT do nothing, but to accept our part in the battle of Kurukshetra, to defend our ground, our existence, to let no one trample us, and so, support the Good. If our fight against those who seek to control and trample us pushes back on those others, then that is THEIR chance to deal with what they might call “evil.”   Krishna did NOT advise Arjuna to non-action, to do nothing, but to plunge in and play it out.

Egos have this idea of wanting to escape karma, so they live the life of pussies afraid to do something “bad” so that they can reincarnate to some kind of undefined nebbish life where they are happier and suffer less. But that’s the ego’s excuse to avoid discomfort NOW so that it can (it hopes) avoid discomfort in a FUTURE life.

What BS. When one starts to realize there is NO escape from being an expression of the I AM, and you have to flow with it, IT, then who cares if “you” fuck up in this life going overboard? Were you following your inner prompting? So you veer on and off some imagined course “up the mountain” and it takes a few more lives. Big deal. You’ve got millions. So play around with it.

Lions and Lambs don’t get along. Neither is “right”. Both should fight for their existence.

We have not told the Flower Newhouse babies they can’t have their symbolic garden work. We have even helped in the spirit of joining them as a group. But they have told us we cannot have our kind of "garden" work, and have thereby broken our willing spirit to continue to work with them.  Which of us then is more supportive of the Good when it comes to giving more than lip service?

Eckhart Tolle and the Art of Dying

Eckhart Tolle is a New Age teacher, who exhorts his listeners to stop the mentalizing and be in the Here and Now. He is quite popular with the sweetness and lighters of SNO who hear in Eckhart’s message a repetition of Vitvan, and this validates their doxology.

Many people can feel the authenticity of Eckhart, that he has achieved “stopping the mind,” or “conscious abstracting.” His cadence is slow, almost as if he has trouble forcing himself to compress his consciousness down into using words to point at an essentially non-verbal experience.

Eckhart says we need to practice dying before the life of the body actually ends. And HOW, we ask, does one do this?

We first might ask, how did this happen to Eckhart? He tells the story of how utterly depressed he was, until one day he took up a gun to end his miserable life. He heard himself say “I’m going to kill myself.” And something snapped. He wondered, “Is there some part of me that is NOT the self that 'it' is going to kill?”

Eckhart had discovered the Witness, the root of consciousness that Vitvan calls the I AM. That is, at our core, there is someone 'behind' the mask, that we are not the personality we believe ourselves to be. For the Greeks, a “per-sona” meant a mask actors wore which acted as a megaphone and amplified their voices in their outdoor amphitheaters. “Per-sona” means “sounding through” or amplifier. The I AM of us is that imperishable root of consciousness that we are, who talks and acts through the role it is playing as “me.”

Following that radical experience in which he permanently broke the software of the ego, Eckhart spent years in a non-mentalizing state, radiating out Here-Now-ness, a kind of bliss that magnetically attracted people, who then wanted to know how to get where Eckhart was.

Alas, most just want to buy a CD or attend a lecture to hear him talk about it. But do they really LISTEN to Eckhart and DO the Work? Sadly, most probably do not.

Eckhart's comments on television watching...

To practice dying while still alive requires heroic efforts. One must break on through past the constant survival scheming of ego, the endless internal dialogues about being “right or wrong,” of being attractive, sexually desirable, lovable, accepted, fitting in, being “on the winning team.”  How many are that desperate to experience being in the Now that they would take their own life? Or to even surrender ego-control for a few hours? You have to be willing to lose your mind in order to come to your senses.

Vitvan summarized the Work of the First Crossing (which is the CORE of the work he established) as “bringing up the entire content of the unconscious so it becomes fully exposed and conscious.” And he added, “In the average unregenerated person this amounts to a prodigious feat.”

That is, it can’t be accomplished by listening to tapes, reading books, tending a garden, chanting AUM in small multiples of three, seeing spirals in cabbages, sleep-meditating for 30 minutes, or any of the other nonsense that passes for “doing the Work” at today’s School of the Natural Order.

The ego, no matter what it might say, will NOT design a program to be its own undoing. It will scheme to make itself survive as a better version of itself, like people who attend the endless get rich or self-improvement seminars that keep retreading Napoleon Hill; nowadays we throw in some Bruce Lipton updated positive thinking so we can alter DNA functioning through epigenetics. Or watch The Secret with its quasi-quantum “you can get whatever you imagine” make-a-better-ego success package.

The ancients, in their wisdom, already knew this. The ego has to be unhorsed in order for the I AM to emerge from the background. This takes undergoing a powerful experience that shocks the chatterbox in the head and shuts it down. The classic methods of overstressing the running software of the manager ego run a spectrum from soft to hard.

HARD would be immediate threat of death. Being thrown off a cliff; facing wild animals, hanging from hooks in your chest. Wartime has often produced such moments of high awareness in soldiers who thereafter look back at wartime experiences as high points in their existence, even despite the horror and misery.

SOFT are more gradual methods, that simply wear out or hypnotize the mentalizing ego. Extended chanting, dancing, fasting, running, and so on, exhausting methods that must be pursued with intense effort until there is a sudden waking into the Here Now, which is accompanied with a sudden Light and Stillness of awareness.

But the most reliable and effective and quickest method that has always been used when available, was the use of psychoactive plants, which were looked upon as special gifts from God, manna from heaven, a Sacred Meal that really did open one’s eyes to the world of the Divine that surrounds us. “Eyes open” is a level in the Mysteries called Epoptae, which even those students of Vitvan who practice mentalizing-only may well have heard of. The ancients considered these plants to have more of the Divine Fire in them; Mani* called them the plants that had more of the essence of “Jesus” in them. These were the fruits that hung on the Trees of Life and Knowledge of Who-we-really-are.

These sacred medicines take away all control from the self-justifying ego manager, and one must surrender to being exposed to the Deep Self, even if it means confronting the “jackasses and peacocks” of our unconscious. The positive side is that we can then discover the Radiant Higher Self at our center.

Vitvan called the unconscious the Psyche. How ironic is it that that the very God-given fruits that are even called "psychoactive" (Activators of the Psyche), that will accomplish much of Vitvan’s Level II work in the First Crossing, namely, “bringing up the content of the unconscious” are feared and shunned by so many?

The “sweetness and lighters” that Vitvan said should move on down the road to Flower Newhouse’s ashram, now sit in the high places at Home Farm. These are not people who will do any practice with enough enthusiasm or push themselves hard enough that they are in any danger of stepping outside of their perverse and stubborn little personalities.

And so, when we look to see who is interested in FINDING WHAT WORKS, being extensional, open to new (or ancient) knowledge about achieving gnosis, we find it is not those Fundamentalists who have turned Vitvan into an objectified saint and his writings into their dogma, who run a limping bookstore, and offer sub-code rentals in violation of the law.

In consulting the I Ching for advice on this nadir of decline at SNO, the oracle gave 55 Feng, Abundance: “Be not sad. Be like the sun at midday,” but through the moving lines warned that the Sun was undergoing eclipse at the moment, and that “even the most insignificant persons can push themselves into the foreground,” and “one is overshadowed by a party that has usurped powers.”

Such is the situation at Home Farm. The spirit of Vitvan has been hijacked by a coterie of tired old people who give lip-service to the Work, but willingly undergo none of its holy terrors. If it were just themselves they derailed who would care? But for turning Vitvan’s instructions and invitation to Freedom into a perversion that is now an obstacle to true Seekers (not phonies who call themselves such on their license plates), they have to be called out to account.

* Mani was a prophet and the founder of Manichaeism, a gnostic religion that thrived between the third and seventh centuries, and at its height was one of the most widespread religions in the world. Manichaeism taught an elaborate cosmology describing the struggle between a good, spiritual world of light, and an evil, material world of darkness. Through an ongoing process which takes place in human history, light is gradually removed from the world of matter and returned to the world of light from which it came.

Escaping the Matrix

In a tape I recently dipped into, Vitvan was saying that when a person's psyche separates from the body and goes out, they mistake this for their “soul.” Then he quotes a story about the ooga-booga backwards Indians in the jungle, sort of a “they’re so primitive” put down. I’m going to have to delve into that...

We know there is a tradition that says the Soul must be developed.  This would imply it is the product of evolution.

Then there is a tradition that souls come in and affix themselves to these human animal bodies. Thus souls come from a higher world. They could be seen as “riders’ who want human experience, and this version of soul is a go-between body. This is the pygmy idea as I understand it (Now).

So evolution wise, our recepts ---> concepts bundles could keep aggregating until we develop a psychic body construct based on feelings, and this is turn refines into concepts thinkings. Now this particular body, psychic body, might well indeed be a product of evolution, or as I have seen it, the “fruit” of the biological stream expressed as a DNA body, that stretches and longs for “transcendence” that is to connect back up with the Solar God in the sky Whose down-pouring Ankh stream of Life energy is our daily food.

I have long suspected there are TWO souls, hence the Templar emblem, of two men on a horse. [See image posted at Juice of the Soul Fruit, 1/31/13, http://isnoshaman.blogspot.com/2013/01/v-behaviorurldefaultvmlo.html]

So according to Vitvan, the biological fruitbody, the astral psyche can separate and go out at night. But he indicates this is NOT the soul. Probably when one’s consciousness travels in this body, the content you see is still that of the biological constructs. The imagery we associate with normal dreaming. It’s separation is part of its longing for transcendence, to rise “up.”

So in some traditions the soul must be consciously created and made with intention. In Taoism they strive to collect and refine Chi to make an upper body, that they can travel in to prolong ones’ existence or “immortality.” Well, any body will fade in time, so “immortal” is relative.

Chi is collected in the navel cauldron or pa-kua, as the immortal fetus, (biological chi energy) then distilled upward and projected out to make an astral body.

 

This would be the biological fruit soul. I learned in Taoism that creatures on subtle planes will try to eat this, rip you off. They show it as a dragon eating the pearl, but we could also see it as reptilians sucking off our energy. Imagine that they run vast Buddhist monasteries where they cultivate the AUMing monks like a hive of bees, and then suck off the honey. This is one of the values of controlled religion, the drones obey authority without question, and keep producing the nectar.

The objectified version of Taoism, does not indicate this inner struggle to protect your soul fruit from the dragons. Instead they give a high abstraction story.

The Dragon Pearl
The luminous ball or pearl often depicted under the dragon's chin or seen to be spinning in the air pursued by one or two dragons is thought to be a symbolic representation of the 'sacred pearl of wisdom' or yang energy. Pearl symbolism, like lunar symbolism, arises from Daoist roots and the connections are extremely complex. This pearl can be said to stand most often for 'truth' and 'life' -- perhaps even everlasting life, which is made available to those who perceive the truth and attain enlightenment.

The dragon's pearl can also be though of as a symbol for universal Qi, the progenitor of all energy and creation. The dragons seem to be depicted in attitudes of pursuit. He is seen to be reaching out eagerly to clutch at the elusive object, mouth open in anticipation, eyes bulging with expectation of achieving the prize afforded by clutching the pearl.
 

In the Jimli-san version, there is also a Soul body that incarnates down, and represents the Logos, or ancestors, acting locally, as cork in the Stream of Tao.

Lower soul and upper soul seek to join in BALANCES of the Heart center, fusing to produce the equivalent of Philosopher’s Stone. An avatar as it were...

This has snapped me back to many old threads coalescing now

1. The spiritual path is to refind Source within ourselves.

2. I now equate That Source to "Soul," something we already have but lost. I was talking with some others and they intuited at once about the bright golden child that we have when we come in to incarnation. This is actually the essence of all that BS overlaid “spiritual” path work. People get “soul” when you equate It to the brightness one sees in a child.

3. Many of our teachers and traditions are connected to Star People, advanced civilizations and their remnants, underground and hidden ET streams.

4. Earth is now graduating from its long snooze in a high school fantasy phase.

5. Various colonists are here, are coming here. Hidden players and their human minions are being exposed.

6. We have important work to do, helping people find Source, helping and guiding them through this transition time.

7. All members of SNO should have the right to use Home Farm as a base, as a retreat, as a Sanctuary. Diverse opinions should be welcomed and encouraged, not hidden from and feared. 

On "Being Positive"

This whole idea of being “positive” grates on me.

For years I have studied harder than anyone else I know, have put myself through various practices to push myself, to break through.

Then when I return to a dying place at Home Farm, I worked within the system diligently, probably contributing in more areas than anyone else. And still they can’t hear, won’t share, won’t listen to anything new.

And then I find tools that enhance the breakthrough and actually DO SOMETHING instead of just repeating ideas. And I am suppressed.

So I cry out to the Heavens “HELP ME! WHAT CAN I DO?” And I keep going quietly. Some FEW get it and start this path themselves.

And my pain and frustration became so bad I chose to leave for one year, but in that year I see that there is WORK to be done. It can’t be avoided once you have a solution and see the PROBLEMS.

So I come back to live among these sleeping mean-spirited Old Cycle phonies, because I feel guided by the Spirit of Vitvan, not just a man called “Vitvan,” but that VITVAN or the One-Who-Knows that sleeps in each of us. I expect to be misunderstood and disabused by these idiots who daily degrade the High Frequency Field they rattle around in with their prattling about gardens, and pretty mental pictures.

And so they feel threatened. They cannot stand having any LIGHT shining upon their ineffectual ways. So they kick me out and turn vicious.

And I’m not going to accept that phonies and bullies and incompetents should be allowed to squat and squander all of Vitvan’s hard work. So I FIGHT BACK.

Of course I am angry. And I am offended on behalf of Vitvan’s Work, his Helpers, and all those enthusiastic sincere students who ran up against this blockade of STUPIDITY that runs rampant at Home Farm.

And then I rediscover my Soul from the iboga work in Costa Rica, and now I know what all this spiritual mumbo-jumbo is about, and how simple it is. That SOURCE is in us and we are born with it, and I know HOW to get it back...

I can outline the Problem clearly, and I have answers.

The solution is clear:

Reason does not work with Unreasonable people living in a private world where they are the “righteous ones.”

A contractor knows that before Renovation can begin, there must be a Teardown and Demolition of the old and rotted-out structure. Fact of Life.

And yet, what I hear is that I am “negative” because I see it clearly and am willing to take up a plan that starts with naming names and calling for a Tear Down of ROT.

I hear the vague idea that there is a “positive” way. If we just keep hoping, the answer will come. WHAT IF the answer HAS COME? Are you waiting to get YOUR answer? Are you waiting for someone else to come in and do the clean-up work (no doubt summoned by your “positive” attitude)?

WHAT IF, after all one’s asking for help and answers, and finding some, that after all these years of INTENTIONALLY trying to help and get answers and being POSITIVE in my hope that answers and help would come, it finally comes. And it says:

GET OUT A BIG HAMMER AND TEAR OUT THE ROT. THROW OUT THE RASCALS. STOP DEFENDING AND MAKING EXCUSES FOR MEDIOCRITY POLISHING THE OUTSIDE OF THE CUP

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Bit by bit negativity has crept into Home Farm. The function of the Field is to stir one up and release their negativity. It chugs along in the background.

The problem is that once a Vitvan or an Anita was gone, there was no spiritual Source strong enough to keep clearing away the accumulating negativity, until it gradually built up to where the good intentions of mediocre students wasn’t enough to keep the ship on an even keel, and Darkness set in. The amplified egos of the “keepers” became projections of their private worlds, and Home Farm became Marj's “MY Home Farm.” The Murrays and Wetmore assumed, because they had squatted there so long, that they were somehow “essential.”

When one has put in many years of their hopes and good intentions into an idea, and it disappointingly turns sour, it is a blow.  It feels like an violation and an invalidation. They are repelled away by the Positive force in the Field who pushes them out for their own good.

But you leave feeling abused, like a victim. HOW could something you gave so much to be revealed in the last act to be rotten at core? Was this all a joke?

Victims need to realize that there is nothing wrong with them. They are forced out by Dark forces. But they have been burned, and psychologically wounded.

To recover fully, abused victims need to confront their abusers, and take back that part of their Soul which was stepped on. It may not be fun, but it’s healthy, and for those on the Path, it must be done to make the Self whole again.

Home Farm is a microcosm of the systemic rot being revealed planetwide. But my dharma, and I believe your dharma, has made it your microcosm. Think globally, act locally.

Remember the Alamo! Take back Home Farm, for all of us, for the future. Don’t let the Dark Lord steal another Sanctuary.

Psychic Middens

(submitted to Resonance Aug 2011)

The local park just up the hill from Home Farm, Great Basin National Park, puts out a magazine called The Midden. They explain to us:

“A midden is a fancy name for a pile of trash, often left by pack rats. Pack rats leave middens near their nests, which may be continuously occupied for hundreds, or even thousands, of years. Each layer of trash contains twigs, seeds, animal bones and other material, which is cemented together by urine. Over time, the midden becomes a treasure trove of information for plant ecologists, climate change scientists and others who want to learn about past climatic conditions and vegetation patterns dating back as far as 25,000 years. Great Basin National Park contains numerous middens.”

In our own inner work we too have to dig into psychic middens. First we encounter our own personal history of hurts, flair ups in the solar plexus, weepings of the heart, and so on, and if one is honest and can keep digging...and digging.... eventually we get thru much of it.  But then one hits a new deeper level and we see that even the very substance out of which we are formed is composed of millennia of suffering. Some traditions like Buddhism explain that we are composed of recycled “atoms” and you might even have some of the enlightened atoms of the Buddha in you!  Chances are, alas, they are far out-numbered by the atoms of fools, dolts, and common plodders like you and me!

So the midden just goes deeper and back farther. As you work through your own probationary work you discover it is a bottomless well. Does the suffering and stupidity ever end? Not in any foreseeable future.  So what does one do?

Spiritual alchemies see the cosmos as a great undifferentiated Light Mind substance, that delights in an endless game of sub-dividing Itself, androgynising, chasing Its own tail, and compressing each little vortex of Light into a packet of matter. Thus the Light gets locked up due to Its own orgy of Self-upon-Self sex, as it were. This involutionary tendency creates the inertia of persistence, the urge to survive.  In the psychic realm this means old crap hangs around century after century. The first undifferentiated Light was called a Chaos, meaning it had not taken on form yet; this latter locked up Light is called a Confusion. “Con” meaning together, so Light fused together. Light stuck. Islands in the Tao.

But the other half of the Process is the “evolutionary” or expansive Return, wherein the I AM and Its basic Light Mind acts as a dissolvent on those inbred twists of matter, and slowly releases their yummy matured-in-the-bottle gunas back into the cosmic stew. Hurrah! Release and some happiness are the by-product.

So how does the above philosophical side trip help deal with our own psychic middens?

Because if you persist and dig deep enough into your own pile, you will finally strike gold, find the underlying fountain of Light Mind from which it arose. With this sustaining you, you can now take on the midden of the race psyche. Simultaneously to discovering how much greater the problem of our pollution is, that we are all knee-deep in shit, is finding the Ally of the dissolving Light. When we grudgingly accept that our separateness is only seemingly so, then we are all in this boat together. Hey I’m not saying I want to share a lifeboat with you all, but here we are! Boy is it tough to surrender your separateness, even if it doesn’t really exist!

In his instructions to newbies to the Work, people who were gingerly pulling back the veil on the hidden “peacocks and jackasses” in their psyches, Vitvan advised to avoid getting swamped and overwhelmed. Raise your forces, get ‘em out of those lower centers where you will be stirred by all the flotsam and jetsam out there. But later on, after one had toughened up a bit, and was ready to become a Light-worker, he said you had to turn around and get right back down there in the fight, and untwist that confused Light matter. Take it head on.

I’m finding that the best method is to let your Ally (the dissolving Light) do Its job. It will unravel those Gordian knots of twisted up Light knickers. All we have to do is to stand in the Beingness of that Light. Trust It to do what needs be done. Vitvan mocks (gently) the narrow humanist mindset which humans are needed by the I AM to get things done. Aurobindo says it this way, that all things are done by the Divine, for the purposes of the Divine, without any necessity for humans to approve or understand.

A spiritual school should operate by different principles than human-made corporations. It should walk its talk. Have you seen the bumper sticker: “Want to make God laugh? Tell Him your plans.”

When things heat up, people get stirred up, and their stucknesses pop out like warts. They get resistant. They get nervous as the ground shifts beneath them from the dissolving Light. They want to hang onto old ways, to persist.

We need to find the balance between surviving as a community without getting strangled in committee thinking, and letting the Divine Light do Its Work upon each of us.

“Seek ye FIRST the Kingdom of God, and ...all these things shall be added unto you.”

What is The Product?

Scientologists (Hubbard) saw things as agreements, contracts, products.

We all trade in life with others. We sing for our supper. We provide a product. We need to be able to define our product to find our market, so we can find where what we offer is valued, is useful, so we can survive, eat, and keep on keepin’ on.

What is my product? What do I offer and sell? Where is my market?

Leslie Stevens once said I was an “explorer.” That is, I don’t stay in one place for too long because my “rush” is knowing something new. Thrill junkie. Lover of those “Aha moments.” Gnosis. The orgasm of the light bulb going off over the head, and the “Oh NOW I see” glimpse of the next step up the misty mountain. With all your getting, get under-standing. That is, what is “behind” this level, behind the Wizard’s curtain...then behind that curtain? 

What is at the “end”of the search is WHAT was at the beginning. Where Alpha swallows the tail of Omega. WHY did the perfectly balanced Plenum, a crystalline body of All potency, fracture Itself over and over, only so that each part, born out of balance, would then try and find its way Home back to balance? That, by definition, Truth is Remembering (re-membering, putting the pieces back together).

My product is that there IS NO product, only the movement of the Spirit, which is likened to a wind. You can’t bottle the wind. It keeps on moving. You might say, as I do, that of the 3 aspects of Divinity, Create-Preserve-Destroy, I see the middle element as primary, the Skambha, the pillar that has the oscillating poles. The oscillation passes through the PIllar, IT remains. While we call it “preserve” which sounds static, Its real job to keep balance by letting each side have its turn. So it restores balance by unbalancing either pole when its turn is over.

My job is to undo things, to point out how no one particular aspect is sufficient. To be like an entheogen, to dissolve, even to the edge of destruction, but to then regroup and recrystallize. To engender the god within, by challenging and undoing part of the protective carapace that the god has formed up over itself as it over-clings to any one role.

This is the action of the original Spirit, which we liken to Fire. Fire heats and excites, which our systems like, feels good. It’s the "warm" in warm and fuzzy. Too much Fire burns, and we don’t like it.

Yet everyone seeks excitement when there is too much same-old. Books, movies, stories of adventure, forbidden love, danger, that is, we are thrilled by Fire when it takes us to the edge of almost being undone, and then, we re-organize to a higher level. The love-adventure story seems to always end where the hero-heroine overcome danger, and finally rush together for insanely mad sexual union, the promise of ... of... what? Next, it’s kids, boring job, disappointment, careers, bog down in same-old. Now it’s time to repeat the formula: excitement, have an affair, conquer new countries, launch new products, eat new food, new product... all in an endless circle some believe is “progress.”

I have no answer to that. But I have figured out that my product is to be a catalyst, an acuator (note the spelling), a representative of the Fire... and a "troublemaker," endlessly pointing out what is wrong and not living up to the specs of the Plan. At first people feel like you are liberating them, as you are, by saying the unsayable, the unfriendly, the critical. So a shy quiet guy (like one we know) is prodded by me over some years into realizing that he has just been cruising along, and things are no longer "good." He slowly gets up the courage to make a change. But now he is back to “hiding in plain sight” the telling phrase he applies to himself. He admires Braveheart on film, has his guns, his stock, but does not feel the URGE to stand on the front lines.

They loved Thom Paine when they needed a catalyst to get the revolution going. They hated him when they wanted to go back to business as usual. 

Vitvan knew what the product was. We have seen over and over how he warns that one would fall apart, how Love would be your undoing. Of how to get to that moment of the Father glorifying you on the cross, you have to pass through the suffering of being undone. The God-drug will make you feel awesome, but you will die in the Process...

If we have a job, it is to cooperate with the Wind of the Spirit, a warm halcyon breeze at times, or a hurricane of destruction. It’s all in the time cycles Hari.

The symbol of the ruler, “god on earth,” is the scepter, or wand, or more precisely decoded, the Skambha, the Pillar who supports ALL but keeps the system in balance by not letting any faction get too strong.

So the role of the catalyst is to remove stuckness, and to monitor that process. Ideally we want to produce enough excitement that the lemmings can dream on that their ego fantasies are just about to be fulfilled. But then to disabuse them of holding onto an objectified image of the Moving Tao. This is a thankless job, and very tiring. I want rest too, but cannot find the “role” that doesn’t seem like a cop out, or feels like going back to sleep. You can tell old man Ralph got tired of his job as trailblazer; he says near the end that he just wants a place to end up his days in harmony, like Dr. John. I’m sure, after a life of healing, fixing, guiding, instructing newbies and groupies, who keep repeating the same old mantram of “I know how it should be,” and “I’m right,” they get tired of tending the Flame, and want to rest.

But that is where we are at. Rekindling the Flame. People get stuck, and they resent you pointing that out, pushing them to break through. Then they feel some release and excitement so they tell you “do it some more,” by which they mean, you do it to them, and they will passively submit. You do the work on their behalf. But then, when they feel better from the release, they want to go right back to being comfortable, attending ladie’s lunch, watching football games, and feeling confident about “having all the answers.”

My model is the alchemical process. The necessity for the Secret Fire is therein the big secret, hidden in plain sight...

Well, that sets my goal for today! Will watch The Good Wife and immerse myself into the Mythos again: the seeking of Balance and Redress (scales of Justice, which of God’s chosen roles will prevail over another?), the conundrum of Love (once loved husband, still loved children, tempted to new love, excitement mounting), the so often unsatisfactory way “justice” works out, because anyone can see that almost no one is entirely bad; even Colombian drug lords love their wives and kids too.  So the story cannot resolve these issues, only keep tottering on the edge of excitements, puzzles to be solved, the celebrations of winning (happy vagina mouths eating and drinking), then corruption, feet of clay... I like the emotional churning, helps me dredge up feelings for housecleaning, but at the end of the day, it is still Chinese food... I am hungry for more existence, yet tired of the same meals.

Doesn’t “gnosis” sound like fun?